Out with the old…

Hi All!

I spoke recently about how I wanted to take my blog in a new direction and I didn’t know if I was going to set a completely new blog up or if I was going to rename this one. I decided that I wanted to keep this as an archive for what Fabulously Fat Fashion was – so if I ever needed to flick through it I could. I guess it’s like starting a shiny new diary.

So voila, I give you Fab Fat Mama. My new blog will still have lots of plus size fashion, but also loads of different content such as parenting, saving money, how to make the best of a low budget, family days out, home decor, crafts and DIY and much more!

I’ve changed all my social media so you can find me on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram still – just under my new name.

I’m already super excited to start my new blog and have loads of things I want to share with you like the time we made dip dyed onesies, how we got the furniture for her bedroom on a budget and how we decorated etc. I’m also making decorations for an upcoming party so have lots to show/teach you there too!

So yeah, please go give Fab Fat Mama a follow and join me on the next chapter in my life.

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Hannah x

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Time for a change.

Hi All!

I’m sure you’ve all noticed that lately my heart really hasn’t been into blogging. There’s been a number of reasons for this. One of them is time – I don’t have as much time on my hands as I used to with having a small baby.

Secondly, I  don’t really dress up as often. I used to have OOTD’s etc but now it’s a case of putting leggings on and slicking a quick brush through my hair before I’m on baby duty all day.

Thirdly, I tend to buy most of my clothes on blog sales/clothing  to save money as we’re on one income so there’s not much to link to/review.

When I started my blog I started it as a way to build up my confidence and feel better about myself. I also was finishing uni to be president for a year and wanted to keep my writing skills up. I’ve been on a real rollercoaster ride since then and I don’t feel like I need my blog in the same way any longer. I used to write that my clothes were my armor, but over the last half a year of being a mum I’ve actually gained the confidence to grow my own armor and become a much more confident and happy person. I used to suffer from extreme anxiety and agoraphobia, and whilst I can still be a very anxious person, I can go out on my own now and not feel like everybody is looking at/laughing at me. My blog coupled with having Eleanor has given me the push and the chance to be myself.

Previously I was buying clothes constantly and having something new every week because I was unhappy with various things in my life including family issues that I had. I felt that buying clothes gave me a buzz and a temporary happiness that filled the void for a little time – but didn’t fill it forever.

Over the last few years I’ve had counselling, the love and support of the most incredible man I could ever dream of meeting and of course the love of my baby Eleanor. Eleanor has completely changed my life in so many ways. She’s given me confidence in myself and shown me how much strength I have but most importantly she’s brought my whole family together. I am closer to Adam’s family more than ever before and they get so much joy and happiness (especially his grandma) from her – it’s lovely to see! I’m so so much closer to my family too. I’m closer than every with my mum and brothers and have a huge amount of love and respect for my mums partner for treating Eleanor as his own and giving her huge amounts of unconditional love. Those two are so cute together and even cuter with Eleanor – I’m so glad my mum found such a gem. Other members of my family have also become closer with me. My cousins are always popping over and having the baby so I can have a break which I super appreciate because as much as I love my bub, sometimes I do need a few hours for me.

 So yeah, I’ve been struggling to really keep up with content that is in keeping with this blog and then I realised that fashion isn’t all I’m about any longer. Don’t get me wrong, I do still love dressing up and shopping but I want to write about what really inspires me now and that’s my family.

SO – I’m going to be changing my blog. I’m not sure if I’m going to create a complete new blog and have a clean break and new style or just re-name this one but things will be changing. I’ll still be writing about plus sized fashion, but more of from a frugal money saving standpoint. I’ll be writing about making my own baby food, Eleanor’s progress, family days out and places we visit, dinners we cook, ways we save money as a family, the struggles of being a plus size parent as well as other things that pop up.

I just wanted to say thank you to those who followed me the last few years as FabulouslyFatFashion. The support and love I get from people who read the blog is incredible and has helped me build my confidence. Thank you for taking the journey with me!

So I’ll let you all know the new name for the blog. I’m chucking a few ideas around at the moment but haven’t settled – yet.

All my love.

Hannah x

If the jacket fits – Featuring New Look Inspire.

Hi all!

Some of you may of heard the news that New Look Inspire are pushing their new collections to be more fashion forward. This has definitely needed to happen for a long time as it has always seemed to be that New Look Inspire was a bit overlooked and behind with the fashion trends. I do browse on their website but nothing much ever jumps out at me, apart from when I shop via ASOS. I’m not sure if they just keep their best stuff for ASOS but I’ve had a few bits via ASOS which have been great. My favourite piece that I’ve ever bought from them though is this faux leather faux fur jacket.

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I love this jacket so much.

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Full outfit. I paired it with a New Look suedette cami and floral full skirt from Boohoo.

I love the jacket because it’s relaxed fit and so works on my short torso. The sleeves are a great length on me and have some detailing on them. The fur isn’t an overly fluffy slab of fur – it has great texture and can also be removed if you want just the leather jacket which I think is a nice touch. It’s always good to have options!

This jacket is so versatile and looks great thrown on with a little dress or with jeans and a cute tee. I’ve had so much wear out of it already and think it will definitely be  a real staple in my wardrobe – even more so now the weather is getting nicer and its time to put the big coats away!

It’s always worth giving a brand another try and seeing what they’re bringing to the table this season. I’m quite taken with a pinafore dress I’ve just seen on their website and think I may be purchasing it very soon!

Becoming A Mother / Appreciating My Mother

Hi All,

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It’s mothers day today so I am supposed to tell you what an angelic, amazing, wonderful mother I have who Is the best mummy in the world and is completely perfect in all ways. However, my mum ISN’T perfect – and it’s taken me a long time to realise that being perfect is completely unrealistic. The truth is that for quite a few years in my teenage years, me and my mum completely couldn’t stand each other. My mum constantly worked so that she could pay the bills and buy us nice things but being a teenager I never appreciated this – I just saw it as her not being there. On the other side of the coin, I was being horrifically bullied and was massively confused about my sexuality and tended to spend all my time on the computer desperately seeking friends online or locking myself in my room whilst listening to “emo” music and wallowing in my own self pity.  Me and my mum would often be ships that passed in the night and we couldn’t really appreciate each other for who we were or what we did. I have two brothers who are 5 and 7 years older than me and I always felt lonely because they were both boys of a similar age and so naturally they got on together and I didn’t really have a sibling to play with. I used to tag on with my cousin and we were always together when we were little but we grew apart when we got older and went to school. So yeah, I was a lonely and quite resentful teenager and really didn’t give my mum the credit she deserved and she didn’t know how to handle this slightly broken, moody, alternative teenager. It really didn’t help matters that I was having poison dripped in my ear about my mum from somebody that I thought the complete world of. I was totally manipulated for years to think my mum was the enemy and thought negatively about me when it wasn’t the case at all. In fact, it turns out my poor mum would lie worrying at night about me and school due to my closed in behaviour.

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Fast forwards a few years and me and my mum have a really great relationship. We spent a period of time not living together and she really missed me and I her, then I moved back in with no real warning but my mum didn’t even blink and made sure I had everything I needed and was really glad to see me home.  Without the poisonous influence and because I was starting to be happy in life (I had just met Adam and he was a wonderful support) I began to really really open up to my mum and spend real quality time with her and actually get to know her as a person and our relationship just really took off. We lived together for a few months and then I moved out for a house closer to uni with Adam and I guess I broke her heart again which I was sad for. I wish I could of more time living there with her because it was one of my happiest times. When I moved into mine and Adam’s flat my mum was always coming over even though it was quite a drive from the family home and she would even flat/cat sit for us when we would go away. We got even closer – but nothing bonded us as much as when I got pregnant.

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My mum was the first person I ever told I was pregnant – before I’d even been to the doctors. She told me previously she wasn’t going to be happy if she was a young Nana, but the way she cried “really” and blabbed tears of joy down the phone and the way she hugged me tight when she saw me said different. She always said she wasn’t going to be “one of those nana’s who sit cuddling babies and going daft over them” and she was wrong again. Seeing my mum with my baby brings me such a feeling of joy. My mum is daft as a brush with her and Eleanor laps it up – constantly grinning and laughing at her.

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All through my pregnancy my mum was my rock. She took me for lunches, put tons of things aside for me, threw me a wonderful baby shower and even bought me my pram. I spoke to her on the phone every day and she was always there for me. I had a few times when I had to go into hospital and she was right there by my side. She would drop everything she was doing and make sure I was okay. During this time I started to realise what a mother is and what a mother does and realised what an incredible mother mine is. She is so kind, caring, generous and selfless. My mum is the heart of our family and the one person who gets everybody (and I mean everybody) involved. My mum won’t see anybody left out and every Christmas her little house is fit to burst with family, friends and anybody else who tags along. My nana was always like this growing up and really, my mum is the image of my nana – warm, inviting and just the absolute linchpin of the family. My mum is the type of mum who will drive miles out of her way to pick you up to take you to college because you’ve got no money to go and no food and you have an exam that day. I genuinely cherish the time I get to spend with my mum – we tend to hang out every weekend and we often stay over too or go out for some dinner together. My mum idolises my partner Adam and I love that they have such a strong and loving bond together. I also love her partner John and love seeing her with a man who clearly dotes on her and makes her so happy. It seemed like for such a long time we were in a stormy patch, but now we’ve come out the other side and now we have a rainbow.

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My mum has moulded me and shaped me and has made me into the mum that I am. She has taught me to be relaxed, calm and to go at my own pace. She has taught me to enjoy the little things, to be tolerant and to always trust myself and my gut feeling. Between her and Adam, I have become a mum who feels confident and happy and I really enjoy motherhood. I love watching Eleanor grow and learn new things. She gives me confidence when we go out because I don’t feel like people are staring at me all the time. They interact with her and me in such a positive way that I feel boosted. My anxiety and depression is probably the best it has been in over ten years and I attribute that to Eleanor. She is such a wonderful, funny, loving baby (who actually sleeps!!) and I am so lucky and blessed to be her mum. I don’t blog as much as I did anymore, but that’s because I’d rather be sat singing to her whilst she grins at me than spending all my time online – but I’m such as she grows in independance I will be back. I don’t want to be one of those mums who are constantly looking at their phone/laptop – she deserves my attention and I want to give it to her.

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When Adam asked me what I wanted for Mother’s Day I told him I would like a relaxing day, a nice card with a lovely message and a Balloon…and that is what I got!

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Adam also remembered that I’ve ALWAYS wanted a giant cookie and so baked me a white chocolate and almond one decorated with my favourite chocolates. I’m so lucky to have such a wonderful partner – he really is my world.

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My wee family is perfect and we have such a great support system. We’re lucky that Adam has such a fantastic mum and grandma too who are both always there for us when we need them.

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My little girl is getting bigger by the day and I can’t wait to make memories with her. My life is full of happy memories with my mum and I will end this blog post with some of my biggest/happiest memories with my mum.

  • Tidying the house on a saturday whilst dancing and singing around the living room to Celine Dion/M People/Lighthouse Family.
  • Using the tongs on those two little wisps of hair in front of my ears.
  • Taking me for my first night out.
  • Listening to motown until like 4 o’clock EVERY christmas/new year!
  • Taking me to gay pride, and actually being proud of me for being queer.
  • Getting me very drunk at gay pride, buying me a flag and taking me home for a parmo.
  • Pride again – when we went on the most horrendous ride ever and you squashed me haha!
  • Butlins – pushing me back on those red trolleys and stealing the tiny jars of jam.
  • Generally teaching me it’s okay to be myself, to love myself and to be tolerant of others.

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I love you mum. Thanks for all the sacrifices you’ve made to give me all that you have. You’re amazing

Your little girl xx

New Year New Dress – Featuring AX Paris.

Hi all!

Today I want to show you the beautiful dress that I wore for New Years eve. It came from AX Paris for Simply Be and I just loved wearing it. I bought the dress during the black friday sales for the exact purpose of wearing it for New Years Eve even though I didn’t have proper plans then. In the end I ended up going to a friend of Adam’s for a few hours then me, Adam and Eleanor went over to my mums house together as she was having a family party and it meant we didn’t need to find a babysitter and could all be together. As with every family party, we didn’t see Eleanor for most of the night as she was with various family members and then she went down to bed around 10 and slept until morning. She’s done this practically every night now since before Christmas – such a good baby! This left me and Adam to party with my family. Adam tapped out early but me and my best friend Chloe were going until 7am!

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The dress is incredibly similar to the dress that I wore last new year (also AX Paris). I Loved the cut of the last dress on the neckline as it was flattering on a larger bust and so I was glad to see another dress in a similar style. The dress might be a similar style but it’s quite out there for me in regards to colour/style as I don’t wear much lace and the navy/nude layering was new to me but I quite liked trying something a bit different. The dress is quite fitted and short and so I was a little nervous about wearing it so close to just having a baby but I’ve been working hard in the swimming pool and so the dress fit me well. I sized up as on the website there was reviews saying that the arms were small. I didn’t find the arms to be particularly small but then again I’d sized up. I generally size up when I wear AX Paris as I generally find them a small fitting – particularly around the bust and arms. I wore a pair of flat shoes with this as I knew I’d have Eleanor and didn’t want to be wobbling around all over. The shoes are actually navy loafers I’ve had for forever from Dorothy Perkins which always seem to “come in handy” when I least expect it.

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I went for classic makeup, with a girly pink lip. I tend to stick to reds but this dress called for light coral cheeks, smooth skin and a simple slick of eyeliner.

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This photo was taken at 7am – my makeup stayed on well for over 14 hours (apart from the lipstick) and my new hair stayed MOSTLY in place which was a miracle considering how much dancing about we were doing. There was even a time warp. My dress stayed beautiful and comfortable all night long – so a successful choice! I always love AX Paris for Simply Be dresses as they’re amazing quality, affordable and fit my body very well.

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Most importantly, I got to spent new years with my best friends and my family. Here’s some snaps of me and Chloe and me and Adam. I didn’t get a picture of me and my mum but it was the first time I’d spent new years with her in a long time and I absolutely loved it. I definitely felt tired for a few days after but it was so worth it for having such a fantastic night. Last year I made the resolution to get my body in a better state and to have a baby which I achieved (pretty quickly too), and this year I made the resolution to get fitter so I can run around after Eleanor and so I will be able to take her out to do all the activities she wants to when she’s older and I’m well on my way with that. I’ve been hitting the swimming and keeping up with Aqua Zumba which I started last year which I really enjoy.

So who knows what my resolution will be next year. I keep going on with determination and feel like I can achieve so much. Previously I didn’t feel like I could achieve anything and hid behind my own excuses – but Eleanor gives me the strength and incentive to try.

Hannah x